I get afraid to speak my mind sometimes, then do at the wrong moments
Sometimes i think and am afraid i make others around me life hard
Honestly sometimes i dont know what to think of myself.
Sometimes i smile to keep from crying….but id rather help somebody else in pain/need to take my mind off my own
Somedays i feel like im in a battle with myself
I think too much but sometimes i dont think enough
Regardless of how “perfect” people think i am or my life is….its far from it.
I love myself…..and i love others. Somedays the shoe is on the right foot. Somedays its a rough day. But i try to face each day with a smile on my face and make the best of it.
I wear my heart on my shoulder….im not afraid to admitt it. When i love, i love hard. When i’m hurt, i hurt hard. When i fall, i fall hard. My emotions are as concrete as it comes….its no hiding it.
Sometimes i take things people say about my appearance personally. I try not to…and 7/10 times…i dnt. But every now and then….its slips through and it does….stems back to childhood…..but im gettin better at it. Dont get me wrong, i can take critisim well. Just sometimes it just really hits and sticks with me
I used to settle for way less than i deserved….but not anymore. I’ve come too far for that.
As “Disney storybook” as this may sound: The one thing i wanna do in life, is know that I made the special guy in my life the happiest guy on Earth……if i can do that then I will feel my life is complete.
I’m the girl who would rather spend all day cuddled up with a bunch of movies or doing nothing with the guy I’m with than being taken out….dont ask me why, but i would.
Sometimes i dont know what to say….or how to say it. Sometimes i have a hard time expressing how i feel or my thoughs…..I try though….I really do. So if I’m confusing to anybody…i appologize.
I don’t want much…..i dont. I just want to make others happy, make an impact on somebody’s life in a positive way, and be loved…..to be honest…thats all ive EVER wanted in life.
Not many people know my past….and thats okay. I’ll keep it that way. Its been far from what i wish. No it wasnt completly morbid…and other people have had worse so i guess in a way im thankful for the cobwebs and dark corners and that they wern’t worse. While there are PLENTY of moments i wish i could erase…..i guess in a way its made me a better me.
But i feel like as each day goes on……it gets easier…and better. Yes there were hard days….and days i just wanted to scream fuck everybody…but i made it through. And its made me who I am….and made me stronger.
I love the people who are in my life…that keep me smiling. Keep me pushing. Keep me on the right path and motivate me to keep my head up. And remind me that everything is gonna be alright. It means more to me than they know. Yall should know who yall are…..and i love yall for it :)
To be honest…no I’m not expecting everbody to read this. but if you do YAY (comments are welcome lol.) My thoughts may seem a bit jumbled up and random…im sorry. this is just me being real and for some reason unknown to me i felt the need to type it all. SO here it is…..this is me. So far from perfect…..but i feel amazing about who i am
I hate instigators with a burning passion. There is a difference between wanting info because your concerned and wanting info just to add fuel to the fire. People need to grow up and get a life. That is all.
Im really tired of seeing my besties hurt and frustrated. Id do ANYTHING for them. Id kill for them (as long as they got bail money) lol but seriously. Im tired of people bringing shit their way. People need to back the fuck up and stay away from my besties because i promise if i find you im fucking you up. Dont mess with my people! Mess with them you messin with me.