The Not So Secret Life

….Its not the day i wished it was…lets just put it at that. But on the plus i got to see my good pal Amanda. And some random stranger told me I was pretty, which i rarley get so it made my day :)

Its when two people can be as one. When no matter what the other person may be going thru, you are right there by thier side helping them fight thier battle. When you have that sense if something isnt okay or isnt right. When everytime you see each other you cant help but smile. When every kiss feels like the first. When just the sound of their name you get happy. You can be talking about absolutly nothing and it still feels like the best conversation. You trust this person with your life. Every day you wake up and thier on ur mind, and they are the last thing you think of when u go to sleep. You cant wait til the next time you see them, and departing is sad. You have your fights but at the end you always kiss and make up. No matter thier past, you see past it and only can see now and the future. They are the light of your day and you cant see yourself anywhere else. they are everything to you. This is just a nutshell of what love is to me

A chicken biscuit.

A cookie

Lotion that accidently sprayed in my mouth

My Parents:

Irvin Brown and Betty Brown…. Lov them to death. They do the best for me that they can and I love them for that. I couldnt ask for more….well, breathing room but dont. I love my mommy, but im truly a daddy’s girl. :) the end

So i just realized im behind on my challenge…OOOPS…CATCH UP TIME

I feel your pain cuz i’ve paid the cost

To have gained love, then had love lost,

To loose the one who gave a damn,

Who’s always there to hold your hand,

That makes you feel like you belong,

That makes you sing a joyous song,

That was always there to make things right,

When there seemed to be no hope in sight,

The one who was always there for you,

Who you never doubted thier love was true,

Who was there for you no matter what,

When life was kicking you in the gut,

Who always seemed to brighten your night,

When there was darkness, they were light,

That person that seemed to understand,

Who would pull you out of sinking sand,

Would protect you when the wind grew chill,

Who you could count on when life made you ill?

Yeh i understand. I know that it hurt

Proably made you feel lower then dirt.

Like you couldn’t get up, took a dangerous fall.

Probably felt like like there was no hope at all.

Did you feel like your world grew cold?

Like you just had your happiness sold?

I know the feeling, the hurt that you knew

Because to me, that person was you.

Ooooo…where to start.

August 14, 2009…the day my life turned upside down for the better…or lets go further back….July 2009, when i met him, Darrell Foster.

I met him at Bridge Builders. He was different, goofy, a little obnoxious, but a good friend none-the-less. Despite it all, he really grew on me. He was there for me to lean on when my knee messed up at camp and helped me hobble around downtown. After camp we started talking alot and it progressed from there. Then August 14 2009, i became the happiest girl in the world! I finally had what i dreamed of, a real relationship built on friendship and not some guy trying to get some ass. I was so happy, but at the same time scared. I punked out and ended it :/ I realized my mistake, but too late. So i did what was best. I kept him close and he became my best and closest friennds. We talked about everything under the sun. We hung out like crazy all summer and had a ball.

He really opened my eyes on how to just let go and have fun, to not be afraid to go after what I want. He taught me more about myself. Most importantly he taught me how to love and what its like to be loved.

Despite what ups or downs happened, this past year or so has honestly been the best of my life so far. No matter what happens, I love this boy for life. :)

(if you read this…Team Jailbait will forever top Team Hannah Montana :D)

…EEEK! ima get it eventually

When i write stuff….i plan on keeping it as real as it come…i appologize in advance if its too real. #that is all

….So i wake up this morning and stretch. Something doesnt feel right so i reach down and touch my stomach…why is it that the ball to my belly ring is gone…How the heck did i do that? AND its nowhere to be found!

So…i really think this 30 day challenege thing im doing http://prettyyoungpoet.tumblr.com/post/1639100813/30-day-challenge
is gonna be pretty interesting.

If ur not doing it…DO IT lol!

So the name is Veronica…But everybody calls me Ve.

Brought into this world on March 30, 1992. ARIES ALL DAY

Freshman in College. Early Childhood education Major.

Dance+Music=Life.

I like to write. It gives me release.

Love my friends and family. They keep me going

Memphis 10 all day. Some people may not love the city, but ive grown to apprecate it and its what i call home.

Addicted to Strawberries

Favorite Colors: Blue and Red

God-Fearing. Loveable. Determined. Creative. Slightly Flirtacious. Beyond Expectations

So….i was watching Bet and my favorite show ever, The Game, is on….and i just had a revalation that connedcts to my life….something that has been bugging me for the last…..4 or 5 days….and it had slowly been making more and more sense…but today it has completly 100% clicked…THANK YOU MELANIE AND DERWIN!! lol

Dear God,

It’s me again. I hope its a good time.

I really need to talk to you. And say whats on my mind.

Things been gettin crazy. And Ive been so confused.

I dont know who else to turn to. I know the best is You.

Each day seems to be harder. I feel im growing weak

I’m tryna find the bright side. But everything’s so bleak

My nightmares are reality. From which i can’t escape

My life feels like a crime scene. So put up the yellow tape

I feel like crying all the time. A steady stream of tears

I feel im in a constant battle, fighting all my fears.

I feel I’m at my breaking point and I cant take no more

In me versus life, its a very uneven score.

I know you said you’d you never give me more than i can bear

But this load it feels so heavy. My God it just aint fair

This is my letter to you my Lord. Please just hear my cry

Im sick of crying every night, so tired of asking WHY?

I feel so out of place up here. I feel just like a ghost.

And im slowly disapearing from the ones i love the most.

Things just aren’t the same. Never dealt with so much change

But i keep running toward my dreams, but they feel so out of range

My head feels detatched. My heart is torn apart.

My life drains away like the blood leaving  heart.

Its like a game of ball, with all the curve balls ive been thrown

But for these things, im just not ready. My head’s not in the zone

All I feel is hated, Stomped on like a bug

I’m craving the soft gentle warmth of a hug

Everybody tells me, Ve its gonna be okay.

But im waiting for the words to mean something one day.

I know you said you’d you never give me more than i can bear

But this load it feels so heavy. My God it just aint fair

This is my letter to you my Lord. Please just hear my cry

Im sick of crying every night, so tired of asking WHY?

I was just so happy, just waiting for that day

Then things i worked hard for. seem taken away

Now my hearts set on empty. So cold and so hollow

The thought of what happened sometime’s still hard to swallow.

Finally felt i had love. The thing i’d desired

So confident in it, my search, I’d retired

Love took me so high, thought i touched the moon

Had me grining so much, whistling a happy tune

I always prayed the distance wouldn’t take its toll

But it kept me away from my ultimate goal

I know if its ment to be yours, it comes back one day

Please just send it back. send it back to stay

I know you said you’d you never give me more than i can bear

But this load it feels so heavy. My God it just aint fair

This is my letter to you my Lord. Please just hear my cry

Im sick of crying every night, so tired of asking WHY?

Just please hear me Lord, just please help me out

What in the world is all this craziness about

I’ve tried to remain faithful, I try not to stray

I try to make sure that I pray everyday

I just dont understand. These things, i just dont get

I feel like under everything good, a fire’s just been lit

I”m trying to see the positive, that which i just can’t find

Lord please just come and help me, before i loose my mind

Cuz nothings going right, and everything is wrong

Ive been praying for your help, been wishing all along

Please Lord send me a breakthrough, i praying for that help

Because i know there is noway, i can do this by my self

I know you said you’d you never give me more than i can bear

But this load it feels so heavy. My God it just aint fair

This is my letter to you my Lord. Please just hear my cry

Im sick of crying every night, so tired of asking WHY?